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Hi , so long i did’t update blog rite ?well i’m little bizy now , this time i wanna to share with you all that no body perfect ni this world so must apprecite someone who care about us , because if we let go that people we can’t get a same people..boys has many attitude..sometime they caring but sometime their behavior like a puzzle , it so difficult to know who they are..i tried to be better that now i also just ordinary girl i need someone to take care about me , i need someone love me and i need someone appricite me as girl..but i'm scary for a relationship because i don’t want my heart hurt again , i don’t want died for a second time , i just want laugh and laugh , i don’t want cried for boy again , i don’t want look fool and dump..heart broken was so hurted , i don’t want  feel it again !i don’t want  fake smile , fake hapiness , i don’t want be alonely girl for second time , yes now i want looking someone who’s really want serious relationship with me..last year i play boy like a teddy bear my reason why i do that for boys because i hated boy ! boy did’t appricite girl , they thinks girl was dump but me ? you wrong ! what happen to my mum is enough to know that guys..they thinks girl cn’t be player ? i hurt their feeling but now i realize they were innocent , i cruel ! i think all boy are same but now i know some boy are kind.. 2011 i try open my heart for somebody but i’m wrong , i fool , i didn’t apprecite him and when he go away from my life,that day i was dead ! my soul was missing my heart was died for a long time but i try to caring on my life and finally i can wake up my spirit..i can forget him and i can hated him..i don’t want be stupid again..this year i wish what is happen in my life cann’t be second time..this year i don’t want sad thing happen in my life , i want start new life , new attitude , new person ! insyaallah i can.. nothing imposible in this life , because we breath just once and we stop breath just once also.. we can died anytime but we don’t when ,where and why we died..act this life ia fair just human cn’t appricite it..some human just let hand to their destiny , but they wrong what is happen to  us not because destiny it cause us cnn’t apprecite ourself..i know my knowlegde is not enough to give advices for ourself but at least i try to be better than before , i changed my life because now i understand what is life..life teach me to be better than before and realize im not young anymore.. i feel  like a bird can fly anywhere and i feel happy because i still have family that love me also my friend who always maked noisy and their joked is enough for i laughing everyday..our moment  that thing i can’t forget ! because loved them as my sibling..thanks because be my friends Jnow i can face the problem clamly..i really grateful now i have everything thanks because they , my life was perfect , without them i’m just ordinary girl and now cann’t pretend that im happy because im really happy , i also does need pretend that i strong but act i really weak i can’t solve my problem i just let hand my problem and now alhamdulilah i can face it not all problem  can settle with angried. now i learn from that thing had done! Now I DONT WANT IN MIDST OF RELATIONSHIP AGAIN !i want my daily life will enchanting.the most important thing i don’t want be parasite for my friend again Jplease forgive me  if  i hurt ur heart , im really sorry if before this i always underestimate you all..in deep my heart  i really sorry..please give me second chance L